what if i….

Hello good people!  This is my second post of the spring.  Spring came late, so are my posts, I guess.  A song I wrote a long time ago came to mind this morning, and I feel like God brought it back into my consciousness.  I see this reminder now as Jesus, my Teacher, with a twinkle in His eye, saying, 

"There's a better way… it's right there in the words of the song I gave you so many years ago…remember?  You and I have talked about this theme many times.  More to learn here, my student, my child.  Read it again."  

what if I let go my grasp

of all the things that raise me higher

what if I gave my life

as a gift

blessed and broken

for the poor of every kind

poor as I am inside

would there be less of me

would I become a nobody

or would I finally be

the best of what you had in mind

for me?

what if I crucified all my pride

and upward striving

put an end to dreams of fame

bigger things

and social climbing

made myself more teachable

reachable

invisible

would there be less of me

would I become a nobody

or would I finally be

the best of what you had in mind

for me?

one finger at a time

loosen my hold on the pride that I cling to

then walk me by the hand

lower and lower

down to the places You go

cause I need to go with You

wherever You take me to

what if I had seen the way

You endured humiliation

seen You go so deathly low

to secure my own salvation

how could I then live a lie

pretending I’m up here so high?

give me the heart to see

how You became a nobody

and showed me the way to be

the best of what You had in mind

the rest of what You had in mind

the best of what You had in mind for me

what if I

crucified

all my pride?